hard time painting with oils in my little room upstairs beside all the kid's rooms. so stinky! on the series i'm working on i've been attempting acrylic. when i was pregnant with d i did a series of 'domestic' paintings strictly done with house paints and it was great. the clean up so easy, no toxic fumes, brushes saved.
but seriously. it's not the same and i miss oils. i need to paint with oils. guess i'll have to open windows, get a fan, light some candles and get back to it. now that the weather is nice maybe i'll clean out garage and claim it as my own. hard though when looking at all the stuff three kids and two adults have dumped in there over the past few years. bikes, toboggans, snowblowers... daunting.
once again faced with the challenge of switching back and forth between obsessive painting and mothering. i need to think about my paintings and be on top of the work, the steps that need to be taken to get it done- on this i'm very task orientated but at the same time i have to schedule in my kid's needs and it's hard. i lost my temper with j today and i feel such a jerk. later he asked me to be be nice mommy again to which i retorted, 'could you be listening to mommy j?' i'm struggling to keep my momentum up and thought process going with my painting and to also take care of my kid's needs. it's hard not to build resentment.
i'm reminded that without my kids, i would be not be in the healthy, happy mind set i'm in now and on the flip side, without my art i would be an awful mom... so carry on. remind myself to live in the moment, this is only going to happen once and i don't need to be perfect.
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